I suppose this is because I haven't yet made a clean break of it. I was laid off from Sil shortly before I interviewed, which I never told my current employer because I didn't want them to lowball my offer if I got it. As far as Sil knows, I'm ready to come back to work any time.
I can't stress how much I love this new job. Top to bottom. it's a better place. Cleaner, far less dangerous, agreeable people, more fun to work. I'm not going back to Sil; I decided that ages ago. So what am I still stressing out about in my dreams?
Last night's was the first time it changed. After stressing out about trying to maintain two jobs, I told my Sil supervisor I quit. No 2 week notice, no 'I'll fill in tonight', just a 'Sorry to leave you in a lurch'. My coworkers there all applauded and I hugged Joe L. on the way out. I felt sad and happy at the same time. If that isn't a fantasy, I don't what is.